Covering my Shame
A short prayer to my loving Father.8 total reviews
Comment from T B Botts
Hello Esther,
we need to keep in mind that we've all fallen short of the glory of God. No one is exempt. Once you've confessed, God has forgiven, and you don't need to bring it to memory again. Who is it that wants you to feel ashamed and condemned? It isn't the Lord. I wouldn't worry about bearing your soul in your stories. We all have a story to tell, and frankly, when we look at the people of the bible, they weren't all the saints we try to portray them as. I think the bible lets us know that we aren't any different than those folks, and if God could use them, He can use us. Keep up the good work gal.
Have a blessed day.
Tom
reply by the author on 27-Jul-2024
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Hello Esther,
we need to keep in mind that we've all fallen short of the glory of God. No one is exempt. Once you've confessed, God has forgiven, and you don't need to bring it to memory again. Who is it that wants you to feel ashamed and condemned? It isn't the Lord. I wouldn't worry about bearing your soul in your stories. We all have a story to tell, and frankly, when we look at the people of the bible, they weren't all the saints we try to portray them as. I think the bible lets us know that we aren't any different than those folks, and if God could use them, He can use us. Keep up the good work gal.
Have a blessed day.
Tom
Comment Written 27-Jul-2024
reply by the author on 27-Jul-2024
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Thanks Tom. I have started writing again. Being the Queen of denial got old. Sharing memoirs is a journey for me. I am glad you are there. Esther
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Thanks Tom. I have started writing again. Being the Queen of denial got old. Sharing memoirs is a journey for me. I am glad you are there. Esther
Comment from Dr. Nad
Hey Esther, I can't tell you what to do or how to do it, but I love your conclusion. Your heavenly father can and he will, because he loves you so much. What we sometimes view as failure is often a detour.
I wrote this several years ago and I'm thinking about putting it on FanStory sometime but you're going to see it in my response to you, here we go:
Growth-Concept: DRB
You say: "I can't because I did . . . " This is your: Performance
Satan says: "You can't, because you are . . . " This is your: Picture
God says: "You can, because I AM!". . . " This is your: Position
Refuse to let a failure define your future!
reply by the author on 26-Jul-2024
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Hey Esther, I can't tell you what to do or how to do it, but I love your conclusion. Your heavenly father can and he will, because he loves you so much. What we sometimes view as failure is often a detour.
I wrote this several years ago and I'm thinking about putting it on FanStory sometime but you're going to see it in my response to you, here we go:
Growth-Concept: DRB
You say: "I can't because I did . . . " This is your: Performance
Satan says: "You can't, because you are . . . " This is your: Picture
God says: "You can, because I AM!". . . " This is your: Position
Refuse to let a failure define your future!
Comment Written 26-Jul-2024
reply by the author on 26-Jul-2024
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Wow. Dr Nad I want (and need) the long version. I need to write it on my mirror. Es
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Wow. Dr Nad I want (and need) the long version. I need to write it on my mirror. Es
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Just a reminder Esther, God's got this!
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Again, thanks for your support. My son has taken his meds for 2 whole days now and my hubby is supervising today. It is a 2 hour round trip. I will get him out of town tomorrow to go camping away from the chaos. Hopefully his doc is back Monday. Esther
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Praying for your family.
Comment from davisr (Rhonda)
Dear Ester, this narrative sounds like a Psalm, almost as though David penned it himself. Bless you for blessing us. I'm so glad to see you writing again. You are one of the most honest and sincere writers and I'm glad to see you break free of self incrimination and deprecation.
Big hugs,
Rhonda
reply by the author on 26-Jul-2024
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Dear Ester, this narrative sounds like a Psalm, almost as though David penned it himself. Bless you for blessing us. I'm so glad to see you writing again. You are one of the most honest and sincere writers and I'm glad to see you break free of self incrimination and deprecation.
Big hugs,
Rhonda
Comment Written 25-Jul-2024
reply by the author on 26-Jul-2024
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Thanks Rhonda. I am writing again but tentatively. Es
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Thanks Rhonda. I am writing again but tentatively. Es
Comment from jim vecchio
I think of my younger self when my father had to come and get me out of a terrible situation. I wanted to hug him, but he was so angry, he refused. God hugged me and forgot my disobedience and carried me over into a much better way of life.
reply by the author on 24-Jul-2024
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I think of my younger self when my father had to come and get me out of a terrible situation. I wanted to hug him, but he was so angry, he refused. God hugged me and forgot my disobedience and carried me over into a much better way of life.
Comment Written 24-Jul-2024
reply by the author on 24-Jul-2024
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Amen. We all need God's hug. I feel so unworthy of His love when I dig up some of my past stories. Writing memoirs is much more of a challenge than I thought. Most people clean them up for public consumption before they post I expect. Esther
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Amen. We all need God's hug. I feel so unworthy of His love when I dig up some of my past stories. Writing memoirs is much more of a challenge than I thought. Most people clean them up for public consumption before they post I expect. Esther
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The me that did such stupid things in my past such as hotting 43 bars in one day and living to tell about it, is not the same me that exists here today. God loved me and changed me.
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I am not sure what "hotting" 43 bars means. Yikes. I have learned 2 drinks is OK, 3 is too much. Esther
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Sorry. I have to check every word now. My hands fail me sometimes. I meant "hitting" bara. My college buddy and I used to play a deadly game called "The Quest". We would set out early and see how many bars we could hit before we had to quit. I once hit 43 or 46. My friend hit 52. It's God's own miracle we are still alive. I never drink now.
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Oh, I get it. I never did the bar hop thing. Good thing I guess.
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It certainly is a good thing. But I rejoice in it now as it is something I can willingly give up for Christ.
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Amen Jim. Thanks for your Godly counsel and support. This is a healing journey for me as I give up in writing each dark memory and with it the shame.
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You are always in my thoughts and prayers.
Comment from Ric Myworld
I've been traveling for most of the last five weeks, but I have tried to check my inbox and read whenever possible. I finally gave up on the idea of catching up and started from scratch. I haven't seen a post from you in a while, so it's good to see your name. Thanks for sharing.
reply by the author on 24-Jul-2024
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I've been traveling for most of the last five weeks, but I have tried to check my inbox and read whenever possible. I finally gave up on the idea of catching up and started from scratch. I haven't seen a post from you in a while, so it's good to see your name. Thanks for sharing.
Comment Written 24-Jul-2024
reply by the author on 24-Jul-2024
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No, I wrote a couple of silly things. Digging up stories from my past has been a challenge. My second son's history will be more difficult to write than the first son's. I need to clean up the raw stuff and make it fit for public consumption. I entered the talk to your plant contest, the sign said "out of order" but voted for other entries to win. There are some really good ones on this site in my opinion. I am tired of poetry for a bit. Have you posted anything recently?
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No, I wrote a couple of silly things. Digging up stories from my past has been a challenge. My second son's history will be more difficult to write than the first son's. I need to clean up the raw stuff and make it fit for public consumption. I entered the talk to your plant contest, the sign said "out of order" but voted for other entries to win. There are some really good ones on this site in my opinion. I am tired of poetry for a bit. Have you posted anything recently?
Comment from lyenochka
Thanks for sharing your lovely meditation and prayer, Esther. I especially liked " You are the bringer of joy, the rock I stand on, the shelter I hide in when enemies face me. You created me to bring You delight" - what a great statement of praise!
reply by the author on 24-Jul-2024
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Thanks for sharing your lovely meditation and prayer, Esther. I especially liked " You are the bringer of joy, the rock I stand on, the shelter I hide in when enemies face me. You created me to bring You delight" - what a great statement of praise!
Comment Written 23-Jul-2024
reply by the author on 24-Jul-2024
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Thanks
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Thanks
Comment from Patty Mazzurco
Prayers!
Your message is deeply heartfelt and sincere. The way you express God's love as unshakable and constant really resonates. It's comforting to think of His love being there for us before we were even born and not dependent on what we do.
I appreciate how you talk about bringing your shame into the light and finding healing through acceptance of His forgiveness. It's a powerful reminder of how we're seen as deeply loved no matter what.
Your plea for protection and faith is raw and honest, showing a real vulnerability. It's touching how you describe God as your rock and shelter. It's clear you're seeking to align your life with His love and shine His light for others to see.
Overall, your words are a genuine reflection of your faith and desire to live fully in God's truth. It's moving and inspiring to read.
reply by the author on 24-Jul-2024
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Prayers!
Your message is deeply heartfelt and sincere. The way you express God's love as unshakable and constant really resonates. It's comforting to think of His love being there for us before we were even born and not dependent on what we do.
I appreciate how you talk about bringing your shame into the light and finding healing through acceptance of His forgiveness. It's a powerful reminder of how we're seen as deeply loved no matter what.
Your plea for protection and faith is raw and honest, showing a real vulnerability. It's touching how you describe God as your rock and shelter. It's clear you're seeking to align your life with His love and shine His light for others to see.
Overall, your words are a genuine reflection of your faith and desire to live fully in God's truth. It's moving and inspiring to read.
Comment Written 23-Jul-2024
reply by the author on 24-Jul-2024
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Thank you Patty.
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Thank you Patty.
Comment from Begin Again
Don't ever be ashamed of who you were or who you are now. Those moments in time whether good or bad helped form us into what exists at this moment. God has forgiven us for our failures because, like Adam and Eve, he knows we are not perfect. It's a lovely addition to the contest. I wish the best of luck.
Smiles, Carol
reply by the author on 24-Jul-2024
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Don't ever be ashamed of who you were or who you are now. Those moments in time whether good or bad helped form us into what exists at this moment. God has forgiven us for our failures because, like Adam and Eve, he knows we are not perfect. It's a lovely addition to the contest. I wish the best of luck.
Smiles, Carol
Comment Written 23-Jul-2024
reply by the author on 24-Jul-2024
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Learning to live in His light is a life long process with mountaintop experiences and deep shadows. Fanstory seems to be a safe place to share my journey. I did not enter this in a contest actually. Bless you for reading my entry. Esther
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Learning to live in His light is a life long process with mountaintop experiences and deep shadows. Fanstory seems to be a safe place to share my journey. I did not enter this in a contest actually. Bless you for reading my entry. Esther