sitting among the multitude
up here in the solitude
now there is no gratitude

I speculate and contemplate
on choices I hesitate
now I often designate

if one would go back in time
was there a choice left behind
something I could see but blind

was there a love that was forbidden
or a deed better left hidden
a different life that was worth living

in this life I traversed the maze
a hidden path covered in haze
on greener pasture I could now graze

with nothing but time to lament
when I lost this main event
for my mind now to torment

on this ledge I do acknowledge
if I had gone to college
I could have gained new knowledge

with only one choice left to make
one more tiny step to take
for this end I can not fake

I rolled the dice and I lost
now I have to pay the cost
let my grave cover with frost

nothing left now it's all done
it's been real it's been fun
now my last trip has begun