I never told anyone 

The full story 

Leaving out bits and pieces 

I blocked out for my own good 

The first time I remembered

The first time I told someone everything 

My hands shook with my voice 

And my breath hitched with my heartbeat 

I did not ask for what happened

I showed a speck of interest

And you responded with a plethora

Of obsession 

Because of you 

I no longer trust 

The promise of honesty 

Nor the proclamation of love

A proclamation you made 

One that I believed 

But if that was love

Then I do not want it 

If that was love

Love is an obsessive, hungry monster

That will kill anything 

To get what it wants 

I hope you got what you wanted 

I hope your heart breaks 

When you hear my name 

Outside of your brain 

I was never truly yours 

You were never truly mine

But you were more to me

Than I thought a person could be 

You were every emotion 

My joy and the grief 

That followed as you took away

My best friend 

That was who I loved

Not who you became 

After all those years 

Not who you are now

Every time I explain 

What happened 

Unedited and remembered 

It hurts more 

Because every time

It gets clearer

That I did not love you 

I loved the toxicity

So I say a true goodbye 

To the best friend, I had 

To the person you became 

And the one you never were