| Self Improvement Poetry
posted March 9, 2024 |
This poem is about things that changed my life mentally.
Mental Timeline
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May we meet again.
From the ashes you shall rise father, and one day we will unite.
Losing you at nine didn’t give me enough time to feel the love a daughter needs from her dad. I needed more time.
I needed more time for you to teach me things like “Don’t let a man touch you inappropriately.”
“How to defend myself when I’m alone”
“What is rape?”
If I knew these things, maybe I wouldn’t have gotten raped at 14. Not too long after you crossed the shore.
God rest your soul.
Maybe I would’ve known how to fight a heavy 25 year old body off my tiny 14 year old body.
If I weren’t so traumatized and in so much pain that I can barely talk Maybe the cops would’ve believed me, instead of dismissing the case. Just for me to bump into my monster the next day at the train station.
The monster that scarred me for life.
That gave me herpes, an incurable disease, where every time I stress enough I get a break out, and it all leads back to flashbacks of how it all began.
Now imagine living with it for 7 years.
Some people don’t even make it past the first year.
So I tried to take my own life because back then it was so much more painful that I could barely walk or sit down for too long.
I thought I had no reason to live if I can’t conceive.
I thought, “who in their right mind would want to love me?” “Who in their right mind would want to have sex with me?” “ Who in their right mind would want to give me a baby?”
My suicide attempt failed, because God had greater for me.
I would’ve never thought I would meet someone that loves me so much to take the risk of giving me a child naturally.
But with that risk came a high risk pregnancy because I was stressed all throughout my pregnancy.
And I kept praying please do not get a break out at the last moment
Because if my daughter, an innocent angel was born with it because I couldn’t control my stress and emotions I would’ve hated myself forever.
God calmed the storm and the story ended beautifully.
With a beautiful daughter that I love unconditionally.
And I want to, I need to heal myself from the pain and trauma in my life
So that she’ll be happier than mommy, stronger than mommy, healthier than mommy, wealthier than mommy, better than mommy.
Princess-Amora Caia Cort, You’re part of something BIGGER.
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This poem was written during a semester in college as a dance major. I had to come up with a choreography for choreography class and the name of my choreography was â??Mental Timelineâ??. Which was about how Iâ??ve been mentally from adolescence until present day at that time, and how I want bigger and better for my daughter. I danced to the song â??Biggerâ?? by Beyonc�© and did a voice over reading this poem at the end of my choreography that I dedicated to my daughter Princess-Amora.
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