I wish I could talk to you again, but can't since we're no longer friends. Shit kills me, but that's life I guess. If only you understood more than just sex. Love is what we had, printed on my brain. Feelings can evolve, but some don't change. 

I wish you understood that I tried my best. Gave you the space. Demons in my head. If only you were me, maybe you would know. I never intend to destroy what was built, and grown. I wish you heard your voice from our last phone call. It can kill a good soul especially with a heart. If words can get physical then that was it. You healed a man, and then murdered a mother’s gift. Shit hits me hard like a bone out of place or a hit to the gut like what Hudini faced.

I wish you heard me out. Never had the chance. It was all about you, never the romance. If only you cared, or at least listened. Maybe things would be great, and not in this position. 

I wish I never met you, maybe I would smile. Bottled up emotions with you on speed dial. You gave me the best day ever if only you knew. Yet the same person did the opposite, and scarred me too. I never loved myself, some don't understand. How can you love without an ego at hand? Well, although you froze my passion like a severe frostbite. I loved you to a point where I forgot what hating myself felt like.

I wish you knew how it feels to lose a friend. The one you ran to for comfort is now no longer present. I was there for you when you needed it. Guess I was like a tissue. Used then was thrown away like some left over food. 

I wish I didn't put the effort into keeping us alive. I was protecting myself plus heart, and mind. You kept me up at night, regret is what you is. I thought if bliss was around love would exist. Guess I was wrong, it was all a lie. Memories are all that's left even when it died.

I wish I can forget you or everything we did. The cuddles, kisses, and chats can't be dismissed. Hungry for attention full of desire. Stuck in a fantasy when it's actually barbed wire.

I wish we never settled on a friendship. You took me through hell, emotions all hidden. I tried to verbalize to get you the help. Your emotionally fractured no lie I also was myself. Took me to a place not going back to what we had. It was done and set like a divorce so we went our separate paths.

 

 I wish you'll learn one day of who you lost. Not what you saw in me, but the damage that was caused. Now go enjoy your life you must want to leave. Onto the next like Paul Anderson's dream. I see you with a dude. I hope he hears this or maybe not since I was replaced with that bitch. 

I wish you can finally see why I cut it off. I tried to fix something that broke by wiping a piece of cloth. Glue doesn't work. I ran out of that. It was for my heart. So many parts to put back. I'm fucked up now. I am going for a drive. Don't know where to. Just out of my mind. Tried to maintain love that went dry. Faith that evaporated that's no longer with Sky. As much as it hurts to say I'm done goodbye. Devotion is the key to acceptance that's manipulated in life.