Life is Precious (Journal entry 9)

One fall night,
I was sitting at a planned parenthood.
I had just gotten out of a relationship.
One where my boyriend raped me.
I know, I know, that is intense.
Let me borrow your attention for a minute.
Why my legs shake at this clinic.
And I conteplate the meaning of life.
Is it heartbeat,
Or is it a smile?
Do they have to feel?
Where does the guilt come from if it is not wrong?
If I tell my mother she will be mad.
I am only 15 and I don't really talk to my dad.
He never really told me about men.
How they can fall from glory
And act as if they were ten.
My God how did I get in this situation?
Well I gotta go.....
They are calling my name.
Wish me luck that I will make the right decision.

James 4:8

"Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners; and purify your hearts, you double-minded."