I am my worst enemy!

 

One of my favorite songs is Rodney Atkins’s “If You’re Going Through Hell” because it’s a reminder that regardless of how dark it looks, the light is waiting right outside for you or me. It’s difficult when faced with tragedy, fear, or the unknown to remember that we aren’t alone. Having faith is knowing that God is always with us.

 

https://youtu.be/l50L4GYhpLc

 

The last few weeks have been a tough time for me. I opened the door to fear, frustration, and defeat and invited them into my heart. I, the strong family matriarch, the never-give-up fighter, succumbed to it all without sharing it with my family.

 

It’s been a sleepless night. At three in the morning, I wrote an exceptional person and burdened her with my thoughts, for which I apologize.  At five, as the sky was turning from dark to dawn, another song started playing, Kenny Chesney’s “Everything’s Gonna Be Alright.”  It’s a song that was on the radio the first time I left my mom’s grave. Was it a message from Heaven? I don’t really know, but my heart likes to believe so.

 

https://youtu.be/OSzYUf2-GSs

 

In a few hours, I will be having surgery to remove a tumor above the palate of my mouth, near the pharynx. The odds are that everything will be okay, and I’ll wonder why I allowed my fears to consume me. The reason for this post is because while feeling sorry for myself, I came across the artwork used with this post, and it was the only message I truly needed.

 

So, I’ll open my door, ask the unwanted visitors to leave, and place my faith in God’s hands, where it should have been all along. 

 

We all go through difficult times, and some of us think we have to do it alone, but remember, we are never really alone. God’s walking beside us, and if we are too weak to go on, he will carry us regardless of our journey.

 

I am wishing each and every one of you a blessed day. I’ve left a basket of smiles, hugs, hearts filled with love, and many prayers sitting here waiting for you. Help yourself to as many as you need. 

 

Always, Carol

 

“IF YOU’RE GOING THROUGH HELL” BY RODNEY ATKINS

 

Well, you know those times when you feel like there's a sign there on your back

Says I don't mind if ya kick me seems like everybody has

Things go from bad to worse, you'd think they can't get worse than that

And then they do

 

You step off the straight and narrow and you don't know where you are

Use the needle of your compass to sew up your broken heart

Ask directions from a genie in a bottle of Jim Beam

And she lies to you

That's when you learn the truth

 

If you're going through hell

Keep on going, don't slow down

If you're scared, don't show it

You might get out before the devil even knows you're there

 

Well, I been deep down in that darkness I been down to my last match

Felt a hundred different demons breathing fire down my back

And I knew that if I stumbled I'd fall right into the trap 

That they were laying, yeah

 

But the good news is there's angels everywhere out on the street

Holding out a hand to pull you back upon your feet

The one's that you been dragging for so long you're on your knees

You might as well be praying

Guess what I'm saying

 

If you're going through hell

Keep on going, don't slow down

If you're scared, don't show it

You might get out before the devil even knows you're there

 

Yeah, if you're going through hell

Keep on moving, face that fire

Walk right through it

You might get out before the devil even knows you're there

 

If you're going through hell

Keep on going, don't slow down

If you're scared, don't show it

You might get out before the devil even knows you're there

 

Yeah, if you're going through hell

Keep on moving, face that fire

Walk right through it

You might get out before the devil even knows you're there

Yeah, you might get out before the devil even knows you're there, yeah

 

“EVERYTHING’S GONNA BE ALRIGHT” BY KENNY CHESNEY, DAVID L. MURPHY

 

She rattled the ice in my plastic cup

I said "yes m'am", fill her up

Tell me something good that I don't know

'Cause this world's been kicking my behind

Life ain't been a friend of mine

Lately I've been feeling kinda low

And she looked back over her shoulder

Pointed at the sign hanging up on the wall

It said

Everything's gonna be alright

Everything's gonna be alright

And nobody's gotta worry 'bout nothing

Don't go hittin' that panic button

It ain't worth spilling your drink

Everything's gonna be alright

Alright, alright

So I nodded my head and said, "that's for sure"

Dropped a few bucks in the mason jar

Felt those good old neon vibes on me

And whatever monkey that was on my back

He jumped off just like that

Right into the deep blue sea

And I looked back over her shoulder

Thinking 'bout the sign hanging up on the wall

That said

Everything's gonna be alright

Everything's gonna be alright

Nobody's gotta worry 'bout nothing

Don't go hitting that panic button

It ain't near as bad as you think

Everything's gonna be alright

Alright, alright

There ain't no doubt it's gonna work out

Come on, sing it with me

There ain't no doubt it's gonna work out

Come on and sing it with me

Everything's gonna be alright

Everything's gonna be alright

And nobody's gotta worry 'bout nothing

Don't go hitting that panic button

It ain't near as bad as you think

Everything's gonna be alright

Alright (is gonna be alright), alright (is gonna be alright)

Everything's gonna be alright

Alright (is gonna be alright), alright (is gonna be alright)

(Everything's gonna be alright)

(Is gonna be alright, is gonna be alright)

(Everything's gonna be alright)

(Is gonna be alright, is gonna be alright)