LIJ Red

LIJ Red: I suspect it was a part of the "testing" phase that I slowed down and read the "Kubler-Ross stages of grief" chart, the
modified model.
Shock, denial, anger, bargaining,depression,testing, acceptance.
Nine years ago, I suffered the rapid fire losses of all my remaining family, my wife and mother. I was 67, and have
recovered too slowly. A youth of poverty and years in the military left me hard enough to carry on, but I got hung up in the
"bargain, depression and testing" stages of grief.
Added to the denial and anger was living alone, and realizing my turn was coming soon.
First I scrutinized my faith, then religion as a whole. Along with some cosmology. No epiphanies there.
Then I thought I wanted to spread my thoughts and notions,becoming in a fashion immortal, although I claimed at the time I wanted to join the ranks of writers I admired, and entertain the world. Hence my membership in Fanstory, and an almost frantic outburst of writing bordering the incoherent.
Now Red the writer has joined Rev. Red the evangelist in sheol, that shadowy nowhere beneath the world.
Today the country store has no heater for old men to sit around and bullshoot (sells mucho beer and lotto tickets, though!) so let's see what Red the codger has to say,assuming he survives Covid-19.