All I loved,
I loved alone
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Even as a child,
I knew I didn’t belong
there was something broken in me.
Inside I had a black hole
that nothing could fill.
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I thought I had the wrong nose,
the wrong mouth
the wrong cheekbones
I only liked my blue eyes
and my creative soul.
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I was also ashamed
of things done to me
that I couldn't control
I didn’t know
it was not my fault at four.
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I didn't feel as pretty
as the other girls,
the ones who smiled
with pearly white teeth
and the boys followed.
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As far as I can remember
I carried sadness
deep in my damaged soul.
I was too young to know
what was wrong.
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Why did I have to carry
such deep sorrow?
Why was my world grey and empty?
while others lived
neath rainbows and blue skies.
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And all I loved,
I loved alone
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