I never told anyone
The full story
Leaving out bits and pieces
I blocked out for my own good
The first time I remembered
The first time I told someone everything
My hands shook with my voice
And my breath hitched with my heartbeat
I did not ask for what happened
I showed a speck of interest
And you responded with a plethora
Of obsession
Because of you
I no longer trust
The promise of honesty
Nor the proclamation of love
A proclamation you made
One that I believed
But if that was love
Then I do not want it
If that was love
Love is an obsessive, hungry monster
That will kill anything
To get what it wants
I hope you got what you wanted
I hope your heart breaks
When you hear my name
Outside of your brain
I was never truly yours
You were never truly mine
But you were more to me
Than I thought a person could be
You were every emotion
My joy and the grief
That followed as you took away
My best friend
That was who I loved
Not who you became
After all those years
Not who you are now
Every time I explain
What happened
Unedited and remembered
It hurts more
Because every time
It gets clearer
That I did not love you
I loved the toxicity
So I say a true goodbye
To the best friend, I had
To the person you became
And the one you never were
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