I was so excited for my coming surgeries.,
For I would get my legs back and a couple brand new knees
One scheduled for July and then the next one in September
I had no fear at all, and I was calm, I can remember
The day had finally come, and then the first one started fine
I got into my room, and nothing seemed wrong at that time
Then hemoglobin, heart rate, and blood pressure dropped too
Heart In such distress, they rushed in, and called code blue
I woke up feeling strange, but glad I didn't wake up dead : )
It took a week to stabilize and two more weeks in bed
And after four long weeks, was released and on my own
They said six months of therapy and healthcare at my home
And now it is September, and I'm on my eighth transfusion
And after that first surgery, I'm going through much confusion
For as the second date approached, I couldn't even sleep
I just was so exhausted and so done with counting sheep
It was such a scary time, and that's why I am nervous
I try hard not to show it, but it's starting now to surface
The first one didn't go so well, and I am full of fear
So now I have to ask myself, just why am I back here?
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